freak thunder storm!

freak blog post!

so i totally forgot i had a blog haha. im way more into facebook & twitter now.
at the moment i am registering for classes for summer. yay school. ha.
anyways may was an okay month. not to many highs but overall good. alot of family time which is a plus. JUNE IS HERE. the next two months are gonna be grand. i have a new schedule for work which is now mon-fri and the morning shift! yay for getting out at 6pm rather than staying til the early morn! so work is going very nice. SANDIEGO trip! KELLYCLARKSON CONCERT! yay! & all is good in this world of love. very very good :]


PRAISE THE LORD for this hopefully wonderful summer! <3


ps. is teresa making a return to bmod? she will def be there for auditions. but as a auditionee? she dont know yet.

baby can u tell me what does that mean

i guess i only blog when im in a idk mood.

work today. joy! this week everything has been going wrong with the machines which causes all of us to stay til 1 am. whatevs. i gotta work for the rest of my life, right?

yesterday was my day off. praise the lord for days off. went to carrows mmmm. lovelovelove. then to ikea to look at some furniture for the upcoming entertainment room. yeah!

weighed myself yesterday and im the heaviest ive been ever in my life. go me! this is probably the longest ive been without dance since maybe i was 8. thank goodness for my fast metabolism tho because id be HUGE without it.

its almost going to be 3 months til ive moved away from home. ups and downs. overtime im starting to miss it. ALOT. not having to work and just hanging out with kids all day. but i need to grow up right? go to work. pay bills. all that fun stuff. i wanna go back to the summer of 08. done with high school and didnt have to worry about a thing.
maybe ill save up for a vacation.

maybe a get away is what i need.

okayy

well the last post made me look like a complete emo.

im not thattt hateful towards my life.



i got thee super duperestt best early bday gift everrrrr
<3

my bday is in july btw.










KELLY CLARKSON CONCERT! :]

FML.

been hella sick. HELLA.



----------->this heat aint helping.

been exhausted lately. from work? maybe staying til 230am ticks me off just a tad.

.dumb people get away with lies. hate;;


too much.

-save me.

almost a month now?

so i pretty much havent blogged for a month almost.

ive been really busy with work & school. today was my day off. oh how i LOVELOVELOVE days off. especially because i dont have to worry about things and just relax. anne and i went to walmart and target. we were there for like hours haha buying goodies to put into easter baskets were making for the little ones in san pedro. and we bought jon & kate plus 8 seasons 1,2 & 3! :] i was looking at the new ninetendo dsi. im possibly going to by one next week. & ps2's are only 100. man im such a boy haha.

anyways. WORK:
-can u believe theres actually drama? yea. over really dumb things too. im the youngest person working there and it seems like the older ones are acting more like high school teenagers.
- more orders + broken machines = longer hours. and when i saw longer i mean LONGG.on monday was the worst. not only was it the first monday of the month but also the computers had a virus so we had no orders to process for 6 hours! so everyone was obligated to stay at least 12 hours. i ended up leaving at 1230...AM! i was so pooped.
- overall it always pays off. literally. i love pay day! hehe :]

DANCE:
- the one thing that helps me express myself. my passion that will always be a part of me. it was the hardest not being able to dance for so long. but after all the hard work with transitioning and stuff. i finally got to go to bmod practice. i loved the atmosphere ive missed so much. studio filled with the ones i loved doing what they loved. dancing. i had a talk with jackie & unfortunately theyre unable to take me back. i have to wait til summer auditions to be part of the team again. of course it hurts. alot. i was trying to hold back my tears as she was telling me this because it was my dream to be on a team like this & i worked so hard to be on it. but its ok. there doing AMAZINGG without me. :] i love them so much & will continue to support them. all i can do is count down the days til auditions in the summer.
SAVE THESE DATES:
APRIL 19th- FUSION COMPETITION
MAY 1st- PACN
MAY 3rd- ULTIMATE BRAWL

SCHOOL:
- online class is pretty much the best thing since sliced bread. haha jk. well its way easier. and might i add i got an A on my midterm. yesss! :] i have an 89 in the class. so yea. thats doing mighty well.


ERRTHANG ELSE:
-on my days off i try to find time to go back to san pedro and visit my family.
buenalee is so big now & smart! lea is getting cuter by the second..and big! L is doing really good in school and sang 'love me do' it was sooo cute. JJ is still going to school & misses me hella. duh.
ryan & nick were down from washington. idk if there still here tho.
its fun spending time with family because its hard not seeing them everyday anymore.

-i read 2 books last month! shocker? i read 13 reasons why by jay asher. i love that book! & crank by ellen hopkins. its crazyyyy. im getting really into reading now. i like live in barnes and noble now. rite now im starting on perks of being a wallflower.

- today i spent over 100 dollars. on things for others. idk why but with me it just feels better when u can get others things. so i promised myself id buy something for myself next paycheck. haha

i guess thats it for now. hope u all have a wonderful easter.

<3

another friday the 13th?

oh man i hope this one isnt like the last one. :[

anyways, things are looking up with me. work gets better each time. the people are so nice. and i love drive homes with joe. the other day there was a creepy bum at the gas station trying to spread the word on how to win the claw game. hahaha.

yesterday was a pretty good day. woke up and then groomed lacy. even gave her a photoshoot hahah







i forgot how much i like taking pictures. anyways after that i went with anne to pasadena cuz she had to get results of her tb test for her new job. then we went to carrowsssss. oh man havent had it in sooo long. it was sooo good.








and then we went to best buy to get kelly clarksons new cd!!! oh man its thee best. way better then her last one. eh. and then she was on american idol & she performed 'my life would suck without u'

i cant wait til she goes on tour!!
:]]


its midnite exactly now.



hopefully on saturday i finally get a car. so that i dont need rides to work anymore. & can finally go back to bmod. i miss them soooooooooo much. <3

k ima go to sleep now. byebye :]

as i watch hsm 3

its about 10:45 am. im watching high school musical 3 senior year. this is the like second time i watched it. ya hard to believe. troy bolton.. mmmm :] anyways i gots work in a few. oh ya. i forgot to tell u. i got a job :] joe referred me at his job at amerisource bergen. hes a pharm tech there. so i got a job as a warehouse associate aka packer. i pack the medicine that are shipped to pharmacies at costco. its pretty easy and pays quite well. i work friday-tues. the people are very friendly there as well.

yesterday i got to hang out with raquel. FINALLY. right? she was in corona staying with her mom for a few days. so we went to victoria gardens and had dinner at cpk with her mom. we walked around and went to the puppy store. there was thee cutest beagle. we played with it and also a husky. huskys are soo pretty but kinda scary lol. after that we went to the movies. unfotunately the jonas brothers movie wasnt playing there [boo!] so we saw coraline instead. i swear were still like little kids. but who cares! lol got home and watched american idol. poor anoop they hella put him on an emotional rollercoaster hahah.

woke up this morning at like 7ish cuz anne had work. but guess who also got a new job?? yeppp anne did. im so excited for her.

hopefully i get my car next week. i wanna get back to my bmod as soon as possible. i miss them sooo much. & i neeeed to dance soon.

well ima finish this movie then hop in the shower.

til next time :]

been a while

ALOT

has happened in the past weeks. no more car for me. but now im back in rancho cucamonga. for good? we'll see. have to find a new job & savesavesave for a car. cuz i cant do anythinggg without it. dance must be put on hold once againnn :[[[[[ that makes me super sad becuz i was just getting back onto my feet & getting ready to return. all these decisions have of course been mine tho. i literally only have 30 dollars to my name at the moment. ive applied to like 30 or more jobs already and trully hate online applications [soo long & there all the sameee] anyways im back in school. only had enough to buy one course but at least i got one. online course of sociology-joy! i miss the kids back in pedro so much. i just cant go back tho at least not yet. i just wish everyone would respect the fact that i'll do things when im ready because basically throughout my whole life ive been forced to do stuff in which i really had no say in. im 18. and of course will still need assistance in some things but im old enough to make my own decisions and all i need is support.

im pretty sure i know what im getting myself into.


....hopefully

FRIDAY THE 13th. blehh.

so today was the worst. it was raining and i was driving home. something happened and i lost control of the wheel. it suddenly just kept goin to the left even as i tried so hard to turn it in the opposit direction. i was in the 3rd lane from the left and went all the way to the carpool lane and hit the median. luckily i hit no cars and no one hit me. i couldnt stop crying cuz ive never been in an accident on the freeway. so i was so scared. a cop came to push me all the way to the other side of the freeway and then a tow truck pulled me off and into a parking lot. anne came so that i didnt have to wait by myself. she so nice. and then aaa came and then i went home. it all happened so fast. had to call off from work today. which kinda sucks cuz i still need more prac before workin by myself next week. but i really needed to just get home to family. im still kinda paranoid with driving now. it was just so scary.& weirdly enough, as hard as i hit the side, there were not dents, just a little scratch. PRAISE GOD.<3
in the words of the amazing carrie underwood...

"She was driving last Friday on her way to Cincinnati
On a snow white Christmas Eve
Going home to see her Mama and her Daddy with the baby in the backseat
Fifty miles to go and she was running low on faith and gasoline
It'd been a long hard year
She had a lot on her mind and she didn't pay attentionshe was going way too fast
Before she knew it she was spinning on a thin black sheet of glass
She saw both their lives flash before her eyes
She didn't even have time to cry
She was sooo scared
She threw her hands up in the air

Jesus take the wheel
Take it from my hands
Cause I can't do this on my ownI'ma let it go
So give me one more chance
To save me from this road I'm on
Jesus take the wheel

It was still getting colder when she made it to the shoulder
And the car came to a stop
She cried when she saw that baby in the backseat sleeping like a rock
And for the first time in a long time
She bowed her head to pray
She said I'm sorry for the wayI've been living my life
I know I've got to change
So from now on tonight

Jesus take the wheel
Take it from my hands
Cause I can't do this on my own
I'm letting goSo give me one more chance
To save me from this road I'm on
Oh, Jesus take the wheel
Oh, I'm letting go
So give me one more chance
Save me from this road I'm on
From this road I'm on
Jesus take the wheel
Oh, take it, take it from me
Oh, why, oh"

FML.

school adfhafkhashfkjhsi. why is elco so retardeddd. they hella made mistakes on everything. idk what im doin with school now.

hatehatehate it.

work- starting by myself for the first time next week. at the westin! which i have never even worked at before. .....thats gonna be interesting.

everythings so swell rite now. :/


well at least one things perfect.

another day another nickel

heard that on spongebob today haha

anyways. today was eh. woke up around 11ish. didnt rain today. it was actually pretty sunny in the morning. then just got cold at night then took my aunt & LJ shopping. we went to target and LJ just bought hella candy. and my aunt bought some work clothes. then later on i went to work. worked with ray again. he's so funny. so like he left to do some transfers and then went on his break. leaving me alone for the first time and the slow day turned real quick. hella ppl came in. it was cool tho. i handled. hahah i love old people. and there was alot today. they make me so happy. sometimes theres old women who remind me of my grandma.

but ya. that was the last day i trained with ray. he just kept calling me a smart ass. only cuz i kept being one hahaha. but ya im gettint the hang of all the comp & paperwork stuff when closing. im off tomorrow and open on monday with christine. woo! i finished a week of work. im exhausted. hahah

got home and dinner was on the table. ate by myself. it was weird. everyone was already asleep.
guess this is how it feels to be growing up.

im gonna hit the hay.
goodnite.


ps. watch this!. jennifer & cathy. there amazazinggg & i love this song.

rainy days

it rained pretty much all dizzay. rain makes me sleepy yet im still putting sleep off rite now. i hella woke up around 5ish cuz i couldnt sleep. its all good tho. this morning i tried winning taylor swift tickets on kiisfm. didnt work hahah. got home and watched wizards with buenalee. wizards of waverly place is just sooo funny. it has random dumb parts that just slay me. hahah. buenalee even wanted a little photoshoot. haha shes too adorable.

at 530 i went to work. ray trained me. hes pretty funny but very helpful. im almost gettin the hang of things. so some commited suicide at the hilton this morning. jumped off the 15th floor. im so scared to worked there at nite now. ahhh!

anyways overall this day was good. kinda long and boring. but whatevahh

but

just that little time with that one lovely person was the brightest part of my rainy day :]

♥ just live now

02.04.09

had work this morning. woke up around 4ish. 2nd day of workk. it was pretty cool. the hilton giftshop is hella slow so only about 20 transactions. then we left to the bank. we also went to the hyatt and westin. goldie was at the westin. she didnt have any bodyguards or anything. lol. she bought a toothbrush. & okk so like this one old dude comes in after we come back to tell us that on the sign it said we would be back at 930. and so gave us a hard time. and then when he left we checked the sign. and it said 1030. gahh.

got home and babysat for a while. then ate some top ramen. yummayy. i took care of some stuff for school. boo. hate it. then watched a little tv then got sleepy so took a nap around 2. haha i woke up like at 5. and it was all dark so i thought it was thursday alreadyy bahaha. but it wasnt. then saw that aj was on blogtv and watched him for a while. hes amazinggg. he has a show on feb20th. i wonder if i work cuz i wanna go. so take me :]


..so that was my day of boringness.
hahaha :]

hopefully tomorrow will be exciting-er.

ps. oh man i totally forgot! look what i made on http://obamiconme.pastemagazine.com/
heheheh

my hopes are so high that your kiss might kill me

so wont yu kill me. so i die happy.


i love how my day can turn out like poo.
... but then right before i go to sleep i get that text from yu.

and everythings better<3

.untitled.

this morning was beautiful. wasnt too hard to wake up. got to work like quite early. today was my first dayy yee. michelle trained me. shes cool. i learned alot...cant say i remember alot of it but she wrote notes so hopefully i can remember haha. using the register is quite fun. hella european ppl came in lookin for hangover meds haha. and a guy gave me a 2 dollar tip..it was weird hahah. and so random. but ya i only had to work 4 hours. then went home and babysat. then took my bro to run some arrands. anne came over for a few hours. we went to target to do absolutely nothing haha. then hit up the gas station. got some cactus coolaaaa. hahah beyonce rite thurr. iN THE COOLAAA :] if u can guess what song that is ill give u a DOLLAAAa haha okay thats enough of that


...on a sadder note
so like super long ago maybe 5 or 6 years before i was born my uncle caught a parrot in our front yard. its name was cory and it was pretty much part of the family. everyone was always amazed on how strong it was because it was older then me and still putting its butt up on the cage[oh man that was the funniest] but cory soon began to get weak this year. and tonite we found it dead :[ so sad. but now i kno grandpa&grandma have their pet with them now in heaven. <3

5am & cant sleeeep.

herro.
i cant sleep. boo.

alrite so like yesterday i had my 'interview' for the hotel giftshop job. mannnn the boss lady is hella mean. im scurred of her. like shes all rude & ish.
but i guess i just gotta stick it out. need the monay. move get the money get the money get the money. so like beyonce broke a string the other day [sadface] so cant play geetar til i get a new string. uhmm weekend is coming up. wonder whats in store. cuz i starts training on monday. 645am! someone shoot meh! haaha. whatevs tho. i can handle.

good nite morning!

a<3tpipe

so the past couple days have been great. but i aint got no tread on my tires no more "/ but it will soon be fixed. && guess who got a jobbb. yawp hotel giftshop. hooray. finally gonna have some moola. chyeeaaa. anyways schools startin pretty soon and i gotta get that ish straightened out cuz they got me registered as a non resident of ca or sumthn like that. and chargin me like a billion dollas a class. ohhh no. so ya. rite now im watching the kids blehh. there getting big tho. crazyyy.

our love is like a song, but yu wont sing along.

Did you forget

That I was even alive

Did you forget Everything we ever had

Did you forget

Did you forget

About me

Did you regret

Ever standing by my side

Did you forget What we were feeling inside

Now I'm left to forget

About us

But somewhere we went wrong

We were once so strong

Our love is like a song

You can't forget it

So now I guess

This is where we have to stand

Did you regret

Ever holding my hand

Never again

Please don't forget

Don't forget

We had it all

We were just about to fall

Even more in love

Than we were before

I won't forget

I won't forget

About us

But somewhere we went wrong

We were once so strong

Our love is like a song

You can't forget it

All the pictures have been burned

And all the past

Is just a lesson that we've learned

I won't forget please don't forget us

But somewhere we went wrong

Our love is like a song But you won't sing along

You've forgotten

About us

adsfhkklaw

im so sick -_- ive had headaches, painful stomach aches & congestion.

someone fix me.

r.i.p grandpa

yesterday morning i got the horrible newst that my grandpa vince has passed away. :[ im so sad but i know that he's def in a better place now. he's been sick for a while. now he gets to hang out with his sister my beautiful grandma hilaria. tonite there was a prayer and i got to hang out with my cousins. its a shame were only ALL together when theres a funeral coming up. but we had hella fun together. tonite was the biggest moon or something like that. it was hella bright tho. i think i have a cold. ive been sneezing and i have a runny nose. not a good week for me :/

but now i am offff. to do something mysterious "drop some timber" hahahah
if u havent seen the house bunny.. see it.

okay bye:]

effort effort.

so writing in this is pretty hard to remember to do everyday. haha. but anyways yesterday was a good day. except i had that random stomach pain again in the afternoon. i wonder what causes it. so i totally beat mario kart on ds. im a g. i know. hahaha okay anyways. last nite i had bmod practice. i missed them so much so it was pretty amazing seeing them again. were getting ready for our sofresh performance which is on valentines day. for every meal yesterday i ate top ramen. & i cant say i want to complain. it like never gets old mmmmm haha. so i ran into neighbor lover boy in the alley today and he waved and i smiled. i hope im not leading him on or something tho cuz hes hella in love...but ya anywaysss he texted me 2 seconds later. and yah. k so like now its 845pm on wednesday and im hella hungryy. i will go get something to eat.
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so i totally had to edit this because i totally coulda saw carrie underwood today! i was supposed to go to the peoples choice awards with raquel but nooo i had to babysit. boo for babysitting. k im done. & sad. byebye

the new year

so its 2009. i wanted to start writing a blog. so hopefully i can keep up with this. anyways, this year has started off great. spent the new year with some new friends. it was fun. played some guitarhero. got funky dank. hahaha. then snowboarded for the first time. it was SCARY at first. couldnt even get up haha. but got the hang of it. i wanna go back to the snow alreadyyy.

today i was supposed to go to bmod practice but aint feelin to well. threw up earlier. idk why im feeling like this. i just ate a cinnamon roll this morning. i think that was the cause of the problem haha. but ya still feeling sick to my stomach. im totally missing right now but wont be later :] maybe that will make me even a tad bit betterrr.

so here's to another year.....but let's not think about anything but today. -<3