baby can u tell me what does that mean

i guess i only blog when im in a idk mood.

work today. joy! this week everything has been going wrong with the machines which causes all of us to stay til 1 am. whatevs. i gotta work for the rest of my life, right?

yesterday was my day off. praise the lord for days off. went to carrows mmmm. lovelovelove. then to ikea to look at some furniture for the upcoming entertainment room. yeah!

weighed myself yesterday and im the heaviest ive been ever in my life. go me! this is probably the longest ive been without dance since maybe i was 8. thank goodness for my fast metabolism tho because id be HUGE without it.

its almost going to be 3 months til ive moved away from home. ups and downs. overtime im starting to miss it. ALOT. not having to work and just hanging out with kids all day. but i need to grow up right? go to work. pay bills. all that fun stuff. i wanna go back to the summer of 08. done with high school and didnt have to worry about a thing.
maybe ill save up for a vacation.

maybe a get away is what i need.

okayy

well the last post made me look like a complete emo.

im not thattt hateful towards my life.



i got thee super duperestt best early bday gift everrrrr
<3

my bday is in july btw.










KELLY CLARKSON CONCERT! :]

FML.

been hella sick. HELLA.



----------->this heat aint helping.

been exhausted lately. from work? maybe staying til 230am ticks me off just a tad.

.dumb people get away with lies. hate;;


too much.

-save me.

almost a month now?

so i pretty much havent blogged for a month almost.

ive been really busy with work & school. today was my day off. oh how i LOVELOVELOVE days off. especially because i dont have to worry about things and just relax. anne and i went to walmart and target. we were there for like hours haha buying goodies to put into easter baskets were making for the little ones in san pedro. and we bought jon & kate plus 8 seasons 1,2 & 3! :] i was looking at the new ninetendo dsi. im possibly going to by one next week. & ps2's are only 100. man im such a boy haha.

anyways. WORK:
-can u believe theres actually drama? yea. over really dumb things too. im the youngest person working there and it seems like the older ones are acting more like high school teenagers.
- more orders + broken machines = longer hours. and when i saw longer i mean LONGG.on monday was the worst. not only was it the first monday of the month but also the computers had a virus so we had no orders to process for 6 hours! so everyone was obligated to stay at least 12 hours. i ended up leaving at 1230...AM! i was so pooped.
- overall it always pays off. literally. i love pay day! hehe :]

DANCE:
- the one thing that helps me express myself. my passion that will always be a part of me. it was the hardest not being able to dance for so long. but after all the hard work with transitioning and stuff. i finally got to go to bmod practice. i loved the atmosphere ive missed so much. studio filled with the ones i loved doing what they loved. dancing. i had a talk with jackie & unfortunately theyre unable to take me back. i have to wait til summer auditions to be part of the team again. of course it hurts. alot. i was trying to hold back my tears as she was telling me this because it was my dream to be on a team like this & i worked so hard to be on it. but its ok. there doing AMAZINGG without me. :] i love them so much & will continue to support them. all i can do is count down the days til auditions in the summer.
SAVE THESE DATES:
APRIL 19th- FUSION COMPETITION
MAY 1st- PACN
MAY 3rd- ULTIMATE BRAWL

SCHOOL:
- online class is pretty much the best thing since sliced bread. haha jk. well its way easier. and might i add i got an A on my midterm. yesss! :] i have an 89 in the class. so yea. thats doing mighty well.


ERRTHANG ELSE:
-on my days off i try to find time to go back to san pedro and visit my family.
buenalee is so big now & smart! lea is getting cuter by the second..and big! L is doing really good in school and sang 'love me do' it was sooo cute. JJ is still going to school & misses me hella. duh.
ryan & nick were down from washington. idk if there still here tho.
its fun spending time with family because its hard not seeing them everyday anymore.

-i read 2 books last month! shocker? i read 13 reasons why by jay asher. i love that book! & crank by ellen hopkins. its crazyyyy. im getting really into reading now. i like live in barnes and noble now. rite now im starting on perks of being a wallflower.

- today i spent over 100 dollars. on things for others. idk why but with me it just feels better when u can get others things. so i promised myself id buy something for myself next paycheck. haha

i guess thats it for now. hope u all have a wonderful easter.

<3